Hi Kay, Lori, Michael, Marie, Marty, Sarah,
(in alphabetical order)
Thanks for your encouragement. I think I am not so lucky as most of you because you have family stands by you.
Friends are the sources of my emotional support.
For one of my long time friends.... sigh....
When I was suspected for ataxia, I called her as I almost collapsed. She was frightened.
I told her not to worry as this won't be transmitted over the phone, I tried to use a joke to round up the conversation.
Few months later, she called and asked me out for dinner.
I thought she was ready to listen or support me, it's good to have a chat. I promised to go.
She continued the phone conversation and asked me about my test result, I said that's positive.
On the day we supposed to meet, she left me a voice message in the morning and said she was busy...
The dinner was cancelled, no further phone call... I haven't seen her for almost half year now.
I wondered if this is my fault or some of you have experienced a similar situation.
This sharing is important to me, thank you so much for all of your kindness sharing.
I think it's time to adjust my thinking and set a "friends like that who needs enemies" mode .... hahaha....
After deep thinking, this is my direction, welcome for suggestion ^^
I will try to learn how to make fun on myself and smile more....
Without ataxia, it is normal to have ageing.
With ataxia, before it is going to deteriorate more and more, I will try to enjoy life and seriously love every moment that I will come across.
Will try to differentiate who and what is worth my time and energy. If it doesn't worth it, I should let go.
If totally deterioration is equivalent to zero on account statement, that means partial deterioration is a positive figure.
If I let those unworthy issue to drag me down, it will depreciate the value of my life, the positive figure.
OK, let me live in this direction.
God bless me and hope I can make it.
Will try to keep smiling ^______^
Charmaine